Feeling Like A Child Again

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ALS is starting to suck the life out of my muscles.

As this disease progresses and I get weaker, my family and friends seem to gracefully accept and adapt to my needs. In fact, it is getting easier to let someone take me to the bathroom or feed me a meal in a restaurant.

Sometimes I can relate to being a child again when someone has to feed me or wash my hands and fingers after I’ve tried to feed myself. My arms feel so heavy when I try to lift my arms to my mouth that eating can be exhausting. When I try to pick up a pill to put it into my mouth I often drop the pill because my fingers are no longer coordinated. I can relate to how a baby must feel when trying to pick up a Cheerio from their highchair tray. Gloves are also really difficult for me because my fingers no longer cooperate finding the finger holes, but my friend Colleen Paquin bought me a pair of warm fuzzy mittens, which are much easier.

I feel like a child learning to walk for the first time. I no longer walk without someone holding onto me. When I walk I have to look down at the floor to watch every step for fear I may trip or step onto something that will cause me to fall. I used to have excellent balance but it is gone.

Mark tried to help me blow my nose last week and it didn’t go so well the first time because as I inhaled, the bottom half of the tissue surrounded my mouth causing me to gasp for air.  We laughed, but we’ve been practicing and are getting better at this new task.

I may be losing use of my muscles but I’m gaining in so many other ways. I’m learning to really appreciate the things I am still able to do and  I’m awed by the love that goes into helping me with my daily tasks. Last night Mark said to me, “Rosemary, taking care of you is the most important job I’ve ever had.”

How can I feel sorry for myself when I have so much?

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12 thoughts on “Feeling Like A Child Again

  1. Curt Boerman sent me to your blog today. Your “Live Simply, Love like Crazy”
    is felt with each word and seen in each picture. B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!!!!!
    To both of you…lots of love and lots of prayers! Sandy Holcomb Rindfusz

  2. Rosemary, you truly are an inspiration to all who know, and those of us who have had the honor of meeting you and also getting to know you through your blog. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and your journey through life, both the beautiful and difficult times.
    My prayers are with you and Mark and your family…always.

  3. Not only are you two teaching us how to live but you are teaching us how to love. I will be forever grateful for this glimpse into your world. Love you both.

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  4. What a wonderful husband!!!! I can just see you 2 doing the blowing of the nose…
    .that cracked me up :)
    We all could learn so much from you….you are my inspiration!!!!

  5. I love the picture you posted of yourself at a young age. You really haven’t changed, you’re just as beautiful today, as you were then. God bless you.

  6. Rosemary, it’s a blessing to know such a beautiful person. You have a heart of gold. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. May God bless you and your family always. You have touched many lives. God has a special place for you in heaven with all his angels. My prayers are with you. Love always……

    Mary Saldana

  7. Rosemary, your heartfelt words are a beautiful gift to not only your family but also to all of us who have the honor of reading them. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. ❤

  8. You’re posts are becoming more beautiful everyday…..keep writing Rosemary you’re an Angel and Mark is an awesome husband. God Bless you both girlie……prayers, and much love.

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