Be Not Afraid


I’ve written this post so many times because I can’t figure out whether I’m afraid of my future or not. One day I am afraid of what lies ahead for me and the next day I feel like I am strong enough to handle everything just fine.

The next major step of my illness is just around the corner so I’m trying to enjoy the things I can do. I know what lies ahead of me but if I concentrate on the things I can do maybe I won’t be afraid. So far and with so much help I’ve adjusted to my weaknesses so I’m sure I can do it to the end.

  • My fingers are curling more each day causing me to type slower but I am still able to share my thoughts and stories which means the world to me right now.
  • My right arm is getting weaker but thank goodness for two arms because my left arm helps to hold my right arm up so it can function more efficiently.
  • My legs are no longer strong enough to let me walk alone and I can no longer sit or stand by myself but I have amazing escorts by my side to get me where I want to go.
  • The muscles in my neck are getting weaker which makes my head wobble slightly and sometimes my head falls so instead of a fashionable scarf I am wearing a pretty blue neck brace. Mark has developed another procedure to lay me down gently to my pillow to avoid jarring my neck.

The more I think about it, the more I know I should not be afraid.


19 thoughts on “Be Not Afraid

  1. Rosemary, you have such strength and grace! I feel truly blessed to know you and be part of your life. Looking forward to spending time together again soon! Love, Kathy

  2. Be strong and believe that we will all be together for eternity, we will recognize each other there and enjoy a glorious peace indescribable here; that life here is painful for all in different ways; that troubles faced build grace and your family will remain strong, close and loving! You will continue to be many of our inspiration on living with major issues boldly. We love you girl and pray for mini and major miracles for you !

  3. “Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain”. You are teaching us all to dance in the rain, and for that we will be forever greatful! Thank you Rosemary
    Love, Amy

  4. Rosemary,

    I don’t know if you remember me or not, I was the host family for Imke and Maria. First off, I can not thank you enough for taking Maria in. That had to be one of the longest years of my life! While she effected our family peace with my oldest daughter, Regina, my husband and myself; it really was to the point where she was effecting our younger adopted daughter who was still in grade school and really had no choice on Maria being here. Regina was the one that choose to have another exchange and older to realize more of the effects, but my Audrey, she was clueless and so confused with all the drama Maria brought into our home. So for that I thank you! Imke has always spoke very highly of you and your family so I was so thankful of the peace you were able to provide us.

    I read your updates and usually am brought to tears with the strenght and beauty that you are facing life with. You are an inspiration to many people and I just want you to know you are in our prayers daily. If ever there is anything I can to do help in any way, please just ask.

    peace, Cindy DeVries

  5. Thank you Rosemary for sharing your life with us…the good..the bad…the tears…the laughter and the fears… We love you so much…

  6. God bless you, Rosemary. I hope you understand the profound impact you are having on others,especially the faith and strength you are showing your family!

  7. Your teachings and sharing this journey is more than anyone can expect you to do and yet we are so very thankful you are allowing us into your life. Rosemary, you and Mark are truly remarkable people.

  8. You’re a remarkable woman and are serving as a shining rolemodel to all of us blessed to know you. Your strength and courage as you and your family travel this journey is an inspiration to ours. Our family sends prayers for you and yours every single day..

  9. Rosemary, We pray with you,and for you. You are so very brave, strong and filled with love and faith. You help us all. May God bless you and your family.

  10. Rosemary

    Eric just sent you that email with tears in his eyes. We love you like crazy, you are our favorite! Love Eric and Jill

    Sent from my iPad

  11. Rosemary, Be not afraid my friend! This was the constant message of Blessed John Paul II. Be not afraid. Fitting message from him who suffered a similar illness. He was an example to the world on how to suffer with Christ. You are an example of that love to all who know you. God bless this journey you are on. Stay strong! Love you!

  12. Praying for His strength in weakness, His calm in the midst of storm, His wisdom when you do not understand. It all sounds so trite when I read it back, but want you to know my prayers change for you every single day. You are loved Rosemary. What a lovely gift you give to us every day with your transparency.

  13. I am so sorry that you have to face this battle. Remember always that Jesus is right there with you, bearing the other side of the yoke, making your burden lighter. I am praying for you, dear Rosemary.

  14. Mark is the best mate/escort I have ever known in my life. Laurie and I talk about it quite often, We can all learn from you two, your love for each other knows no limit. Your blue neck brace is there so we can see your smiling face and the sparkle in your eyes. God bless you both.

  15. Hi Rosemary, This is your neighbor from Willshire Drive, Pam Critchett (Arnoldi). Just wanted you to know I think about you often and I am praying for your continued strength, courage and peace. You are an amazing woman and I am awed by your wisdom. You are a trailblazer for all of us. Sending you love and warm wishes.

  16. Rosie,
    Your courage in sharing this blows me away! You are an amazing woman! Know that I’m praying for your strength in body, mind and spirit but I swear, You’re the one strengthening family and friends with your indomitable spirit! Remember, no matter how your body lets you down, you’re swimming in grace!
    love, denise

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